I am Loser~1!:*

Yeah, I am a loser
I loved a girl once
Even the day has dawn
years passed through my lawn
still her heart is unknown

I am loser
the one who hopes for good
who promised to rise on own foot
who then changes according to mood
who mind still seems crude

Leave them all,
I am in the moment of fall
my fame is waiting for a hall
but that mall
is too faraway, also the girl
I used to think,
I left them all
but no, they are all here
I am still in fear
no one still seems dear
My minds isn't yet clear
who is there to listen my dear
even i tried
even i cried
even i lied
even i need guide
-------after all these year!

All these user
have plans for their future
they have all mature
they burned their lighter
even though its my turn
i am in the place of burn
don't care where i am from
don't take me cause i can't run
i know i fail since i didn't tried
that's why, I am a lose, ain;t i??

© Gajananda Mani Adhikari]

Her Glare:"

Feels like just preview
which has a great lift
This freezing moment always fit
Her glare, that's god's given gift

I am just behind the opposite side
My mind's gone on crazy ride
My heart's on her side
waiting for her's to abide
She just looked behind
Wait, our eyes eyed
My eyes said, You so bright
maybe she thought i lied
"her glare:" I could't hide
My watering eyes had not cried
That moment was where my mind ride

© +Gajanandamani Adhikari 

I hAte iT herE--!!

The fan-base you say
Are not here to stay
They just like what i play-
at present but not everyday
My Life: It's a war
between
 to choose a fan or me
play for them or follow self whatever it be

But,
When I have regrets
Not for the past but present
What you can?
Change what is happening and-
Sure! Life changes if i try
What about those nights I cry
Story - I've been trying to fly
But I can't see the sky
complete trust or betting for someone
means faith-
I am as i am or deployed than you,
 the fan who said i mastered whatever I drew
 hey you, where are you
 Screw you:
i don't feel like human
when i have to follow, where you've been
when i have to play what you want to hear
when i have to face what you call dear
when i have to be in same genre just because you like it there
when i am reaching the heights with your fear
damn! hell then becomes real
and death becomes only freedom.

© +Gajanandamani Adhikari 

World, I wanna create

Someday,
today is gonna be nothing less
thinking about the problems to face
trying to overcome the troublesome race
involving with thousands in their case
thinking about the winning taste
people not caring about one's caste
everyone working to create their own fate
helping sbd. even if they get late
developing the world in its fastest rate
recognizing people with their mind's state
no effect on mind due to the weight
different clothes being the best mate
place where love defeats the hate
This is the world I wanna create:

by +Gajanandamani Adhikari
-lost thoughts-

Do i want me "=!!

I try to write
but my hand goes numb
I know the truth, fact
I just can't face it
I just got to race it
Run away,  playing the game I'll  lose
I know these all;
Ethics and emotions
Politics and socialism
These all are i am in
The matrix,  which controls me
Death. It's not the end
It is, but not for me
I know it seems crazy
Cause, you can't feel it
Neither, believe it
I'm praying maybe god
To show devil & clear me
The me, who thinks though
The me, who burns self
The me who loves Her
I can't take it anymore
Clear these all and just let me go
But deep inside i say:
Don't let  me go
Don't let me go

By  +GajanandaManiAdhikari
-past diary-