I hAte iT herE--!!

The fan-base you say
Are not here to stay
They just like what i play-
at present but not everyday
My Life: It's a war
between
 to choose a fan or me
play for them or follow self whatever it be

But,
When I have regrets
Not for the past but present
What you can?
Change what is happening and-
Sure! Life changes if i try
What about those nights I cry
Story - I've been trying to fly
But I can't see the sky
complete trust or betting for someone
means faith-
I am as i am or deployed than you,
 the fan who said i mastered whatever I drew
 hey you, where are you
 Screw you:
i don't feel like human
when i have to follow, where you've been
when i have to play what you want to hear
when i have to face what you call dear
when i have to be in same genre just because you like it there
when i am reaching the heights with your fear
damn! hell then becomes real
and death becomes only freedom.

© +Gajanandamani Adhikari