Do i want me "=!!

I try to write
but my hand goes numb
I know the truth, fact
I just can't face it
I just got to race it
Run away,  playing the game I'll  lose
I know these all;
Ethics and emotions
Politics and socialism
These all are i am in
The matrix,  which controls me
Death. It's not the end
It is, but not for me
I know it seems crazy
Cause, you can't feel it
Neither, believe it
I'm praying maybe god
To show devil & clear me
The me, who thinks though
The me, who burns self
The me who loves Her
I can't take it anymore
Clear these all and just let me go
But deep inside i say:
Don't let  me go
Don't let me go

By  +GajanandaManiAdhikari
-past diary-