I have my head crushed by fear
i am still just because of my belief
which is not what I know
i am shaking out of fear
don't know why I came on earth,
why I am with people,
why I am surrounded with their thoughts more than mine
Why is it
And I could know the answer but can't resist it
I let others control more than i do it
I let others enter me and I can do nothing about it
Every spirit is touching me
Every thought is changing me
Everyone is grounding me
And my fear remains the same
My fear was not there when i was with her
But now i am asking myself what I am for,
without her
only sinking in the fear.
I only believe her
and that is why I am not dead here
Now I ask myself what if I am on the edge of death
Will I try to resist or let it capture me..
Now each word to whom I laughed is full of fear to me
I am frightened both of Shiva and Yamraj, both Jesus and Lucifer, both good and bad
I fear of myself now...
GZ
