my life got a Hero

i gotta deal with trash
before cash
need to crash
my windowed wall
before funk shows its ass
should play dumb to see
what the enemy has
call it truce
but nobody really can relax

my life
sucks worse than yours
full of mercy and regrets
no one knows better than me
how it feel
when a teenager life crushes the childhood's
when an adult's advised soaked people toward being rude
don't stare that lame at me
show your action show what you can be
these words of motivation
never reached to my determination

Going specific here
determination, it is totally nil
when i think about it
heart doesn't ring a bell
the one to work hard get the best thing
for this thee has gone through shit
but see this
no one can even try it
i feel like i am being lame than anyone followed

I know, i've also seen
those people who are proving
this generation ain't about nothing
but what about those
falling for fool's gold
can't take their thirst in hold
show me someone
the one living life just for fun
living in missing bullet of the gun
who pursuaded darkness to sun
who's never gonna run
the one to make any heart turn
person who get their respect, earned
got chance but left several throne
Jiraya, a charcter of anime(naruto) is one

Jiraya, or the pery sage or ero senin as you may know
But he is one who can be a hero
the one who could take any blow
the attitude "Never give up" to "world peace"
making each of the student as fierce
He deserves the most of all respect
For being at the greatest height with foot on ground

_Dedicated to Jiraya

by +Gajanandamani Adhikari

What more

How do i define my love to you I don't understand is it true The flu My mind blew Your heart got long queue Nobody's face is new Shall i blow myself through Or leave a way to whom i feel you Rather way i am gonna lose What more is there To regret forever My love ain't mere mine so never became mine Sad songs are way to long Happy one passes through This feeling worst than burning half body Better to keep with myself and disappear in the cloudy

By: +Gajanandamani Adhikari 

ME

Lets talk about me now
I, the writer of this poems and story
Was never ready
I used to live in a fantasy
But when i chocked out to be back to reality
I dunno if its best
or the worst thing happening
But it feels like 100 hands clapping
to wake me up from night walking
i was gonna jump of the cliff
Near to fly in my dream
But reality is not that easy
i must had made a loud scream
however, dreams not real its just cheezy

Let me introduce myself
without my name and  my fame
all my superior and inferior
all my truths and lies within them
all my influence and regrets

I am easy people influence
i can feel other people's feel without slightest of their words
seem unreal i know but its only real secret you will know about me
I am walking in the hall of fame
but with my reality they gonna take me to hall of shame
the way i am talking seem,s full suicidal
i am not even rhyming this but wanna see my other side
the one where sun is lost and night is must
the one everyone is full of misy
i have no sense of anything but see
i a,m trying to get to the mainstream
its the easy way out for me
to kill someone and shave the evidence clean

The truth is i tried a lot
to turn myself into the outside and all
of course all were foul
and never succeeding battle
but i gotta some with hatred for me
Now i don;t even know which me had started